life's been really depressing & there's too much " excitement " for me today . we got back our papers & many many peeps were really happy about their results but definately not me . hais . my eyes have been " washed " too much that it hurts kinda badly now . flunk my major subjects & i seriously feel like dying , even thought about whether i should just jump & end my life . but i know that its really idiotic to think that way so i'm still in one piece blogging now . its like everyone did so darn well for this time's mid-years but i suck at it totally . what the heck is wrong with me ? am i really that stupid , hais . i need reassurance : c

felt that i've let myself down & especially my marm & tution teacher . i'm lost & don't know what to do . hais . told my marm my results just now , she sounded awfully disappointed like i know she would be , hais . i know my tution teacher would be just as disappointed & i really don't know how to break the news to him . hais . tomorrow's zhs's day off , will most probably spend the day at home thinking things through .

& many thanks to all those who were there to console me & stuff and to also see the pathetic state i'm in . i know i'm a crybaby & i also know clearly that crying can't solve anything or make things better but just let me cry for that period of time cause i'll be better after that & i'll think straighter and be positive ? , at least it beats having me go cut my wrist or doing something drastic . hais . shall go rest my eyes now & i'm still feeling rather depressed : C may god bless me that i will not flunk the rest of the papers because i don't think i'll be able to take the blow .





-- i'm pathetic & more love would be good .

keep holding on; 6:54 PM

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yvonne! :D


seventeen

2o FEB.

to be happy;

for more cash;

worries - free;

not so emotional;

good results for 'A' levels;

for superman ^^;

to travel in a red hot-air balloon ;

to visit PARIS;

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